listening to music never makes me feel more relax and gets me thinking of so many things!
I realized that I'm always listening to music whenever I'm updating my blog.
Today I felt extremely guilty.. it's not something big but it caused some happiness between my family (my dad and aunt mainly) and I feel that I was the one who caused the unhappiness partially.
Basically, at random times, there are always strangers/people selling ice-cream/people asking for donations who just randomly appeared at your doorsteps if you are living in a HDB right, and these people will usually try to see whether anyone is at home for them to approach. So today's afternoon, someone came by my doorstep, as described by my mum (some plump guy) and I was actually sitting at my dining table so I can't be seen. This guy actually tried to converse with my mum and asked him whether her kids are at home, and my mum said no, and one funny part I remembered was when this guy asked my mum "Auntie, you eating dinner ah? My mum doesn't speak English and she isn't English educated either, so she replied "no, doing something". I found that quite funny la, since my mum usually don't speak English and her reply was really cute. So this guy said that he will come back again later on.
Ok, so I thought that he wanted to do some survey with my mum's kids or something but halfway while watching television with my Auntie, this guy came back again. My aunt went out and they talked for quite long like around 10-15 mins, blabbering quite a lot of crap and I thought it must have been some survey thing. I couldn't hear because I was focusing on watching the TV and I am a bad multi-tasker plus the television was loud.
I've always known that my aunt is those really easily convinced type. Someone says something (Esp about donation or buying ice cream and shit, she will always buy). Not that it is a bad thing, or call my stingy, I've always felt that money should be spend wisely! What I meant by wisely doesn't refer to saving every cents here and there and been very unwilling to spend money, but instead, spend on things that you like/wants, or people you love. I have always believe in that, especially when it comes to family. But my aunt on the other hand, just get convinced so easily that sometimes it gets kind of bad. I mean, donation is good.
BUT in recent years, there are so many people who goes around lying to get donation/people to buy things from them. It is everywhere!
When you walk into the shopping mall, there will be people who just approach you to donate $10 to charity. I used to believe that as well and if that was the me many years ago, I would have donated. But not now because personally feel that this is getting way too common. It is not as if I doubt about the donation to the charity, but how many percent of the money do they actually donate to charity, seriously? 50% of it? 20% of it? Or even $1 out of the $10 maybe? Just my own assumption, but seriously, in this competitive world that we are living in (We are talking about Singapore, our living expenses are consider pretty high as compared to many countries out there), I mean, who would go around trying to get donation from people for free, right? Especially when most of the people who are asking for donations will usually start off by saying either that they have a family/old people at home that they need to take care off? Or they just came out from jail/homes and they want to turn over a new leaf? Some of it may be true, but IMO, I've always felt that isn't getting a job better? Using donation as an excuse, it makes it sound like the person have got a big charitable heart.
So back to what I was saying, after he talked to my aunt for quite some time, I saw my aunt went to her room to take her wallet. (This always happens.) There is barely any time that she actually just reject the person and walk back to the couch to watch her TV. When I was younger, I don't really care. But today, when I saw that she was taking her wallet HER CREDIT CARD esp, I hurried to her room and asked her what the person wants, and she told me it was some monthly donation and $50 per month if I didn't hear correctly.
I know it isn't my business, but I tried to stop her and convinced her not to donate. Maybe to her, she can afford that money, and she don't find any harm in donating. She brushed me off and told me that it can be cancelled after 3 months. (I know that there is a high chance she won't cancel it). She didn't care about me, and so the really annoying and kpo me went to my parent's room and tell my parents. My dad immediately rushed to the door and saw that the guy was holding on to my aunt's IC and writing down her particulars. My dad flared up and I could hear from the room because I was in his room. He tried to get back my aunt's IC from that guy, and the guy told him that he wasn't selling anything. Dad was really angry and he told the guy that every single person who approaches him tells him that, and added that it is donation isn't it. Dad was really angry with aunt for "always doing this type of thing". Haven't seen him flare up for quite a long time.
So that's it, I think they are pretty unhappy with each other now. I know both of them has their own intention. Dad is a taxi-driver, and I know every cent that goes into his pocket isn't easy at all. Before he even starts earning, he has to cover his daily rental fee for the cab and also the petrol money. His income is quite unstable and it depends on luck actually. On some days, he may earn more. And on other days, he may not be earning that much. So I understand why Dad is so angry at my aunt. It's not his money but he sees how his sister has to wake up early everyday for work, it's really tiring. Yet she just spend her money without thinking all the time. While for my aunt, she is that type that she will donate money if she feels that she can afford, like why not? She doesn't find any harm in doing donation even though she knows that she may be at the loss end, the person may be just cheating her, she will still donate. Two different thinking that sparked off unhappiness, and indirectly, I caused it. Bad part was that both of them are now unhappy with each other, while the good part was that my aunt didn't donate in the end. so yay.
My own thoughts and feelings - doing donation is no harm, I mean why not? But for me, I will be more willing to donate to old people/disabled that approached me physically. To me, they are the type of people who requires more help and they don't ask for much either. $1 or $2 at most. Unlike donations whereby you don't see the people who needs help physically and they usually ask for $10 or even $50 just like what happened today. The guy today must have been cursing my dad since he was so near to getting his job settled and some uncle came to disturb hahahah. Oh and I was talking to my dad and until now we still don't get why he asked for my aunt's IC either. My dad feels that IC is a really personal document and she shouldn't just hand hers over to some random strangers. We are guessing that he will probably be asking for her credit card next (luckily he didn't get the chance to). Credit card leh wtf, it is damn personal!
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
please come back already
a brand new day and so it is the 24th of June.
tuesday is gonna pass,
wednesday is gonna pass,
thursday morning and afternoon is gonna pass,
and fatty will be back on thursday night.
haven't seen him for close to two weeks already and it is the longest time that we have been separated (in a way) and I miss seeing him everyday so much! Sometimes we see each other so often that we don't really say "I miss you" to each other very often but this time it is really long!
the feeling is kind of numb already though, the first few days was super horrible! I'm that type that hates the goodbye moment and the first few days of it but eventually I feel pretty ok and am quite used to waking up at around 1pm everyday to talk to him while he shower/eat his breakfast/before he leaves for his tour of the day and doing my own things before talking to him again usually 12-14 hours later when he is back in the hotel. so I usually stay up and we talk till around 5am SG timing usually or even later like 6-7am! Leading such an unhealthy lifestyle for two weeks already and I am so used to it! now I don't even feel tired at night though I no longer wake up pass 2 or 3pm! oops except for the Saturday that just passed! I woke up to talk to fatty and went back to sleep until like 5pm x.x
felt like talking a little about this really special person in my life right now and I hope he will always be (so mushy) hahahha. but honestly, he is like the best ever. I've never expect to find someone who is willing to do so much for me, remember so much about me (all the little details here and there), really dote on me, care about me unconditionally, making sure the stubborn me get enough sleep (though he usually can't control my bedtime hehe), travelling here and there for me.
Did I mention that this dummy actually went to the airport to send me off the other day? I was so unwilling for him to do that, I mean, what's the point whn he stays at Lakeside and the Airport is in the east and the journey to and fro will take at least 3-4 hours? and we only get to see each other for less than an hour or maybe an hour? this silly is really. So he went to the airport and had Mac Breakfast w me and I forgot that I didn't have money in my wallet some more! So he paid for it. And saying goodbye was so tough, especially at the airport. you know, saying goodbye at the airport always make me sad. though it wasn't a long good bye, thank goodness. it was not as if either one of us is going to another country to stay there for good or to study there for months! whoop whoop
and what makes him more silly was that we were waving goodbye when I enter the departure hall, and kept looking back at him when I was queuing to get my passport checked, and when I was getting my passport checked, and even after I wanted to wave my last goodbye to him before I went to the duty free store. Was looking around for things I want to buy and whatsapping him at the same time. Normal people would have be gone after the last goodbye right?! but this silly boy was still standing there even after 10-15 mins and only after that that he told me he was still there in case I want to wave goodbye to him for the last time. how silly and sweet ah this fatty.
reminds me of the times when we go out or when he is sending me off to go home, whereby recently he had been really stubborn and always insist on accompanying me to take the train home/to someone closer to me even when we are in the West or worst still, at Lakeside which is his house area?! yet he always insist on taking the train with me though it always pissed me off because I really want him to go home and rest. I mean, what's the point of travelling here and there right?! and when he alight, he will always stand at the door and wait for the train to pass and wave his last goodbye of the day to me. this boy ah.
can't remember whether I blogged about it but sometimes he give me random surprises at my block. crazy one! there was once we were going for bowling at Clementi and he crazily traveled to Bedok, my house downstairs somemore to find me?! and we traveled back to Clementi again. and back to Bedok again because he wanted to have 85 BCM for dinner. crazy crazy one! next time he get his license he can travel all his wants and fetch me more ok, fatty
and he will write card for me every month. so sweet sobsob. oh and the other day he copied my idea (that I didnt use in the end) to send a letter to my house while he was overseas! it arrived in my letterbox last week and I didn't even expected it. only realized what it was after seeing our photos that he included! <3 <3
all these little details and so many more! never fail to make me feel so love! <3
two random photos taken about 2-3 months back!
tuesday is gonna pass,
wednesday is gonna pass,
thursday morning and afternoon is gonna pass,
and fatty will be back on thursday night.
haven't seen him for close to two weeks already and it is the longest time that we have been separated (in a way) and I miss seeing him everyday so much! Sometimes we see each other so often that we don't really say "I miss you" to each other very often but this time it is really long!
the feeling is kind of numb already though, the first few days was super horrible! I'm that type that hates the goodbye moment and the first few days of it but eventually I feel pretty ok and am quite used to waking up at around 1pm everyday to talk to him while he shower/eat his breakfast/before he leaves for his tour of the day and doing my own things before talking to him again usually 12-14 hours later when he is back in the hotel. so I usually stay up and we talk till around 5am SG timing usually or even later like 6-7am! Leading such an unhealthy lifestyle for two weeks already and I am so used to it! now I don't even feel tired at night though I no longer wake up pass 2 or 3pm! oops except for the Saturday that just passed! I woke up to talk to fatty and went back to sleep until like 5pm x.x
felt like talking a little about this really special person in my life right now and I hope he will always be (so mushy) hahahha. but honestly, he is like the best ever. I've never expect to find someone who is willing to do so much for me, remember so much about me (all the little details here and there), really dote on me, care about me unconditionally, making sure the stubborn me get enough sleep (though he usually can't control my bedtime hehe), travelling here and there for me.
Did I mention that this dummy actually went to the airport to send me off the other day? I was so unwilling for him to do that, I mean, what's the point whn he stays at Lakeside and the Airport is in the east and the journey to and fro will take at least 3-4 hours? and we only get to see each other for less than an hour or maybe an hour? this silly is really. So he went to the airport and had Mac Breakfast w me and I forgot that I didn't have money in my wallet some more! So he paid for it. And saying goodbye was so tough, especially at the airport. you know, saying goodbye at the airport always make me sad. though it wasn't a long good bye, thank goodness. it was not as if either one of us is going to another country to stay there for good or to study there for months! whoop whoop
and what makes him more silly was that we were waving goodbye when I enter the departure hall, and kept looking back at him when I was queuing to get my passport checked, and when I was getting my passport checked, and even after I wanted to wave my last goodbye to him before I went to the duty free store. Was looking around for things I want to buy and whatsapping him at the same time. Normal people would have be gone after the last goodbye right?! but this silly boy was still standing there even after 10-15 mins and only after that that he told me he was still there in case I want to wave goodbye to him for the last time. how silly and sweet ah this fatty.
reminds me of the times when we go out or when he is sending me off to go home, whereby recently he had been really stubborn and always insist on accompanying me to take the train home/to someone closer to me even when we are in the West or worst still, at Lakeside which is his house area?! yet he always insist on taking the train with me though it always pissed me off because I really want him to go home and rest. I mean, what's the point of travelling here and there right?! and when he alight, he will always stand at the door and wait for the train to pass and wave his last goodbye of the day to me. this boy ah.
can't remember whether I blogged about it but sometimes he give me random surprises at my block. crazy one! there was once we were going for bowling at Clementi and he crazily traveled to Bedok, my house downstairs somemore to find me?! and we traveled back to Clementi again. and back to Bedok again because he wanted to have 85 BCM for dinner. crazy crazy one! next time he get his license he can travel all his wants and fetch me more ok, fatty
and he will write card for me every month. so sweet sobsob. oh and the other day he copied my idea (that I didnt use in the end) to send a letter to my house while he was overseas! it arrived in my letterbox last week and I didn't even expected it. only realized what it was after seeing our photos that he included! <3 <3
all these little details and so many more! never fail to make me feel so love! <3
two random photos taken about 2-3 months back!
Thursday, June 19, 2014
blogging whatever comes to my mind.
Hello!
Can't believe that I am updating my blog once again even though I just updated it yesterday. I mean, when was the last time I actually updated my blog two days in a row?! Must have been many many years back!
Don't even know why I actually feel like blogging nowadays. Not too sure whether I'm just bored since fatty is away ugh :( and there is still 7 days before he come home. 7 days feels so long but we are almost half way through!
So today was a rather busy day for me! I mean, at least I have things to do! I had two appointments today! Appointments sound so.. but one was my monthly Dental appt and the other was my first Laser or Revlite Treatment, the name for it!
I shall start off by talking about my Revlite treatment. Booked my appointment yesterday and I'm really glad that the clinic is so flexible with appointments even though I think that the clinic is actually quite pop! My appt was at 12.30pm and dad fetched us there. Was feeling really nervous because I have never had any laser experience before and the word laser sounds scary to me! Initially thought that there will be many procedures to handle, and the need to change to the medical robes or whatever it is called. Arrived and very soon later, my name was called and I had to follow this nurse to the treatment room which was at the unit besides the consultation room/reception counter.
I was told to remove my top (no medical robe like what I expected) because I was doing the laser treatment for my arms and back! The pain was quite minimal, throughout the treatment which was around 20 mins, I felt "ci ci" tingling sensation and it just felt like I was being hit with rubber band. I couldn't really see what was going on because I had to wear some goggles that will apparently protect my eyes from the strong laser light!
The nurse applied sunblock for me afterwards and the good thing about the treatment was that I can do my normal activities after the treatment! I wouldn't say that I enjoyed the treatment and so far it has only been less than a day so I don't see any results yet but I hope that there will be results!! Oh, and the nurse also told me that redness was pretty normal because it showed that it is actually "working". Wasn't too worried about that since it is not on my face!
The recommended treatment will be around 6-10 sessions for more visible results for myself. Dad decided to op for the 4 sessions package first which cost 1k, pretty expensive and I felt guilty. If there is effect, then we will be opting for the 10 sessions package which cost $2288, and both the prices doesn't include GST yet so we paid $70 for the GST. whut.
Le sweet parents waited for me and after I took my next appointment which was one week later, we left the place. Went for a haircut today as well and trim my hair and cut my fringe. Don't really like how it turns out though and I hope I won't end up clipping up my fringe again. :( the bangs are thick and I totally forgot to ask the hairdresser to help me cut it thinner ugh.
Had my dental appointment at 6pm today and was really tempted to cancel it because I was so tired somehow. Must have been the short sleep since I woke up early on both Tuesday and Wednesday! I can finally sleep in tomorrow!!! and have some time spent at home! Will be removing my braces in October which is really soon I feel, I mean, it is just 4 months away. My dentist has started to close my gaps today already with this
I like the colour though hehe. It feels really tight and the moment I had it on, I know I won't be able to chew after today. Good luck to me and hopefully I won't have to rely on liquid diet for the next few days hurhurhur.
Anw, I have been watching my diet a little since I haven't been exercising ugh. I feel so lazy and I really wish that I have a gym at my house or even just an exercise bike or treadmill. I'm such a bummmmmmm. So I refrain myself from snacking/eat processed food since I came back from Bali. When I'm hungry, I op for fruits/yoghurt or whatever healthier choice I can find. Was hungry at around 9pm so I ate strawberry yoghurt yumyum, and had grapes for snacking while watching drama at 11 plus pm! And I'm drinking milk currently hehe. Always prefer the normal milk rather than flavours like strawberry or chocolate. Not a fan of it since young and the only time I had strawberry milk when I was in primary school, I remember I vomited on the bus and luckily mum had a plastic bag with her. and yes, everything in the plastic bag was pink liquid damn gross. from then on, I haven't had strawberry milk. Quite weird especially how much I love strawberries but strawberry milk is too artificial for me!
Been really boliao and kept rewatching dramas that I have watched before many years back and I always end up watching a few eps usually around 5, and then the next day I will hunt for a new drama to watch even though I haven't finished it, ugh I am annoyed by myself! oh and I watched Gossip Girl! Watched 5 eps ikr, doesn't sound like something I will watch because it is an angmoh drama!
boop boop train of thoughts broken! gonna find something to do while waiting for fatty to talk to me. It is 12.45am at my side and only 6.45pm at his. I am on the 19th of June while he is still stuck on the 18th of June. It is scary that the sky at Europe is still bright at 9pm like wtf, I find that like so odd! Oh and when I was in Bali, the sky was dark already at 6pm!
Can't believe that I am updating my blog once again even though I just updated it yesterday. I mean, when was the last time I actually updated my blog two days in a row?! Must have been many many years back!
Don't even know why I actually feel like blogging nowadays. Not too sure whether I'm just bored since fatty is away ugh :( and there is still 7 days before he come home. 7 days feels so long but we are almost half way through!
So today was a rather busy day for me! I mean, at least I have things to do! I had two appointments today! Appointments sound so.. but one was my monthly Dental appt and the other was my first Laser or Revlite Treatment, the name for it!
I shall start off by talking about my Revlite treatment. Booked my appointment yesterday and I'm really glad that the clinic is so flexible with appointments even though I think that the clinic is actually quite pop! My appt was at 12.30pm and dad fetched us there. Was feeling really nervous because I have never had any laser experience before and the word laser sounds scary to me! Initially thought that there will be many procedures to handle, and the need to change to the medical robes or whatever it is called. Arrived and very soon later, my name was called and I had to follow this nurse to the treatment room which was at the unit besides the consultation room/reception counter.
I was told to remove my top (no medical robe like what I expected) because I was doing the laser treatment for my arms and back! The pain was quite minimal, throughout the treatment which was around 20 mins, I felt "ci ci" tingling sensation and it just felt like I was being hit with rubber band. I couldn't really see what was going on because I had to wear some goggles that will apparently protect my eyes from the strong laser light!
The nurse applied sunblock for me afterwards and the good thing about the treatment was that I can do my normal activities after the treatment! I wouldn't say that I enjoyed the treatment and so far it has only been less than a day so I don't see any results yet but I hope that there will be results!! Oh, and the nurse also told me that redness was pretty normal because it showed that it is actually "working". Wasn't too worried about that since it is not on my face!
The recommended treatment will be around 6-10 sessions for more visible results for myself. Dad decided to op for the 4 sessions package first which cost 1k, pretty expensive and I felt guilty. If there is effect, then we will be opting for the 10 sessions package which cost $2288, and both the prices doesn't include GST yet so we paid $70 for the GST. whut.
Le sweet parents waited for me and after I took my next appointment which was one week later, we left the place. Went for a haircut today as well and trim my hair and cut my fringe. Don't really like how it turns out though and I hope I won't end up clipping up my fringe again. :( the bangs are thick and I totally forgot to ask the hairdresser to help me cut it thinner ugh.
Had my dental appointment at 6pm today and was really tempted to cancel it because I was so tired somehow. Must have been the short sleep since I woke up early on both Tuesday and Wednesday! I can finally sleep in tomorrow!!! and have some time spent at home! Will be removing my braces in October which is really soon I feel, I mean, it is just 4 months away. My dentist has started to close my gaps today already with this
I like the colour though hehe. It feels really tight and the moment I had it on, I know I won't be able to chew after today. Good luck to me and hopefully I won't have to rely on liquid diet for the next few days hurhurhur.
Anw, I have been watching my diet a little since I haven't been exercising ugh. I feel so lazy and I really wish that I have a gym at my house or even just an exercise bike or treadmill. I'm such a bummmmmmm. So I refrain myself from snacking/eat processed food since I came back from Bali. When I'm hungry, I op for fruits/yoghurt or whatever healthier choice I can find. Was hungry at around 9pm so I ate strawberry yoghurt yumyum, and had grapes for snacking while watching drama at 11 plus pm! And I'm drinking milk currently hehe. Always prefer the normal milk rather than flavours like strawberry or chocolate. Not a fan of it since young and the only time I had strawberry milk when I was in primary school, I remember I vomited on the bus and luckily mum had a plastic bag with her. and yes, everything in the plastic bag was pink liquid damn gross. from then on, I haven't had strawberry milk. Quite weird especially how much I love strawberries but strawberry milk is too artificial for me!
Been really boliao and kept rewatching dramas that I have watched before many years back and I always end up watching a few eps usually around 5, and then the next day I will hunt for a new drama to watch even though I haven't finished it, ugh I am annoyed by myself! oh and I watched Gossip Girl! Watched 5 eps ikr, doesn't sound like something I will watch because it is an angmoh drama!
boop boop train of thoughts broken! gonna find something to do while waiting for fatty to talk to me. It is 12.45am at my side and only 6.45pm at his. I am on the 19th of June while he is still stuck on the 18th of June. It is scary that the sky at Europe is still bright at 9pm like wtf, I find that like so odd! Oh and when I was in Bali, the sky was dark already at 6pm!
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
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ugh this is quite annoying. been trying to blog since yesterday but ended up just deleting the blogpost because I got lazy halfway.
it's night time right now! probably the only time that I will be blogging! so much thoughts running through my mind and so much things I feel like blogging about but I don't know where/how do I start, hmmmm..
Okay, so my holidays have been pretty okay so far and I don't know whether I should consider it as well spent though! Though I truly felt that the holidays can be better if the client can just let us off.. indeed tedious and a chore to travel all the way to meet them on a weekly basis. I mean, it is our holidays after all. Yes, we were supposed to do our work, but at the same time, give us a break damn it. I can't stop whining about this but FYP sucks so bad.
Spent loads of quality time with fatty during the holidays, as usual. Going to school, watching movies, going to GYM... my new found activity that I really enjoys it and I love going to the GYM! Started gyming in around second week of May I think. I have always wanted to visit the gym but didn't really have the courage to enter one especially the public gyms.. since they are always so packed!
I remember once when zee and I wanted to visit the public gym at Bedok. I was really motivated during that period (last year) and I work out at least thrice per week mainly running and doing home exercises! Home exercises are really great! they can make me sweat so much within 3 minutes or even lesser no joke. But I hate the fact that I still haven't gotten my yoga mat since I wanted to buy one donkey years ago since it is really painful to lie on the floor and working out on it! harmful for the back I guess and when I sweat on the floor, there will be a really disgusting sweat mark on the floor!
But yeah! I finally finished the gym with fatty about one month back and we went to the public gym at Pioneer! It wasn't too bad though the first one or two session I felt pretty awkward since the gym was pretty packed and I didn't know too much about working out in the gym and getting in the right form for the different workout. Thanks to fatty for patiently guiding me through though! So far we have had 5 gym sessions together!
Leg day x2
Back day x2
Arm day x1
Will usually work on the glutes and do cardio at the end of every session as well. Personally I find that I don't sweat that much when I gym! I usually sweat when I do squats though! And cardio, of course!
Leg day is the most enjoyable for me so far because I like to work on my legs! Back day is pretty alright though I almost died on our second back day together. The first one was pretty okay for me but the second one we had was tough. I guess it is probably because of the order/arrangement of the workout! The other day, (Last tuesday) we had our first arm day! it was easy for the start! arm day is quite interesting but boring at the same time! but I was aching so badly from our arm day for around 2-3 days! good ache though, hehe.
So for the past few weeks, I went to the gym with fatty for at least once per week but haven't gone to the gym yet this week and probably not too sure whether I will be going since fatty is away overseas. :(
I just came back from a Bali trip btw! It was a pretty short one I would say, but long enough for Bali, I guess. Didn't quite enjoy the trip very much though because I felt that the time was not well spent :( can't blame it because I went with Auntie Mary and Auntie Annie and they need their rest. Sometimes I feel that I shouldn't get pissed off too easily because I remember I was in quite a bad mood and only felt better on the last day of the trip. The first two days was terrible! I was feeling really down for the whole day after fatty sent me off for my trip because that morning on the 13th June was the last moment I saw him and I will only be seeing him again on the 26th of June odear. I'm not even halfway there.
The trip was booked really last min, like just one week before we flew. Was contemplating for very long whether I should go. I guess the fickle-minded me get affected easily so I went in the end though I regretted my choice not long later. You see, I am flying off on the 13th of June and will only be back on the 16th of June (night time), and fatty will be flying off on the 15th of June to Switz until the 26th of June. I felt that I could have spend 3 more long days with him if I didn't go. Such an OA, ikr.
Now that I'm back home I feel much better already and today was the first day that I spent at home since I was back only yesterday! it wasn't too bad because I had things to do. Since fatty is away in Switz, there is actually a 6 hours time zone difference so when it is 12midnight in Singapore, it is only 6pm in the evening there. I find this kind of annoying! It is like the day is over for me already and it is only evening for him?! And when it is 12midnight for him, it is already 6am at my side which means morning already! (insert angry face)
So I slept pretty late at around 5-6am SG timing last night hehe. It was his first official day of his trip and he is in Paris currently! And I woke up in the afternoon, I think I only had 6 hours of sleep now that I think of it. BUT WHY AM I NOT TIRED AT ALL, this doesn't feel like me!
Today, I feel so damn thankful and touched by things that my parents are willing to do for me. Personally, I feel that I have been such a troublesome daughter. Ever since I hit puberty / in upper primary, I started to grow pimples on the forehead of my face. I remember having really large and ugly pimples unlike majority of my peers with really nice skin. And when I hit lower secondary, pimples started growing on my cheeks instead. terrible terrible but I am so thankful that it is cleared now. And from around sec 2/sec 3, I started to have acne growing/forming on my arms/back. I felt terrible at that period of time. Everyone gets to wear nice sleeveless clothes and I only get to stick with my long sleeve. I know I can easily just wear sleeveless out, but my insecure self always make me feel so self conscious about my arms! Even up till now, there are quite a number of scars left on my arms. It is really not that bad, but can be seen. Honestly, I can't even remember when was the last time I wore sleeveless clothes out and just walk around really freely.
From what I remembered, my parents spent a lot of money since I hit puberty trying to get me to go to the doctor to cure it my acne problems. From visiting polyclinic, to visiting private doctors, to visiting the National Skin Care Centre, to visiting Chinese Doctor and oh, facial too.
From applying cream, apply lotion, controlling my diet, eating medicine, pills, eating chinese bitter medicine etc... My mum usually buys a lot of products for my skin (either face/arms) whenever she hear people say that they are good, and most of them are not cheap. When I was younger, I always hated it when she do that because I hate the trouble of having to use a proper cleanser, to apply things on my face, or even applying some masks for acne and I usually waste her effort and money by using the products for a few days and dumping it there. I feel bad but back then I was only in primary school/lower secondary. And for the consuming of medicine, I remember hearing the doctor says that there will be side effects for the medicine and consuming too much of it may cause liver failure because some are really strong. I remember having to pop pills every single day or even twice a day.. but really, I feel that none of them actually really works for me or maybe idk, I just didn't notice the difference.
There was once in sec 4 whereby I consumed this med for my arms that make me stink so bad. That period of time, I feel bad because people could get a taste of how smelly I was when they come near me. Even zee often complain that I was smelly. So the doctor fees added up to quite a big sum esp when I visited the Skin care centre quite often for about a year or so. I remember dad always driving me and mum there after school and mum will accompany me to wait for my turn to see the doctor and to take the medication and paying for it. Chinese doctor sessions was usually accompanied by my aunt every weekend and after a few months, I stopped going back because the chinese medicine was costly and it wasn't doing much help. Oh and the thing I hated most was going for facial. Luckily I only went twice and rejected going for it TOTALLY every time mum mentions it. Going for facial is torturous, imo. It was really painful especially when I have so much blackhead/acnes/huge pimples on my face, and the after effect will be me ending up looking really horrible because of my reddish face.
And today, we visited this aesthetic clinic. Wanted to make an appt for it since last year Sept but dragged till now. Finally! Went for consultation with the doctor.. waited for around 45 mins though. The doctor suggested Laser! oh it is for my arms and back btw. felt as if I wasted my parents money by trying to treat with it with so many methods but I could have done Laser earlier on! Went with mum and dad drove us there. I know I wanted to do it so badly after the doctor told us about it.. just imaging myself not having to wear long sleeve under the hot sun and being able to wear sleeveless just makes me really happy. However, it is not cheap at all. 4 treatments done in a month at the price of $1000, and 10 treatments done in around 4 months at the price of $2288 which doesn't include the heavy GST of 7%. I told mum that I don't mind paying it myself, but my dad is paying for it. I feel so touched, really. He told me that he doesn't mind paying for it as long as it can be cured. :(
I know my parents are not rich. Every cent they make is really not easy at all. My dad, he has to sit in the cab for so so many hours pay day. It is really an unhealthy job and he meets many different kinds of people every single day, and he usually comes home with many stories to tell! Suddenly remember the other time when Kan wants to interview my dad for her assignment and he started talking about his stories. :) As for mum, she works really hard and her money doesn't come easily as well. But what I feel touched about is their selfless love for my brother and I. My mum barely spend on clothes or even anything, but when she goes out with us, we will always have a nice meal together and sometimes she will buy things for us though she may not be the most generous mum out there. As for my dad, he is really a nice man. He doesn't spend money either and mainly only on buying us nice food and also on beer because he enjoys drinking, yet he only buy those really cheap beer. :/ I mean, with the amount of money for the laser, it could have been well spent somewhere on other things or even just saving it. But, I am thankful, really.
And I almost forgot when I told my parents I wanted to get my braces. My dad is always the really supporting one and brought me to the dental on one of his off day straight, and we decided on getting braces in less than a week and he was the one who brought me and accompanied me to the X-ray, my pre consultation, first consultation and some occasional consultation though he usually just complains to my dental about me hmm. And braces doesn't come in cheap as well, it is about $4000 or so. My dad was cracking a joke today and saying that when we moved back home (I wanted to renovate my room and already have a rough idea how I want my room to look), he says that my bed that I am getting is just getting lower and lower. From the bed itself with the frame, to without the frame, mattress etc because of all these money spent on me. I am really excited to move back home but it is gonna be really tedious and without the support of the rental, dad is going to have to work really hard and by then, I will be going to a university which means the big sum of school fees that we have to pay. Thankful for my aunt too because she have actually paid an amount for my braces as well. Every month, she will place $100 on my table for my monthly consultation fee. It is the little things my loved ones do that make me feel really touched. I know for sure that I am going to work extra hard (with a pea brain) and treat them really well in the future. I may not be able to give them much now but I definitely will in the future.
Don't even know how I just keep typing so much for the past one hour and drafted such a long post. I really find myself such a long winded person and I can just link from one thing to another and just go on and on and on HAHA. Haven't even finish mentioning about my Bali trip and I linked it to other things. My aunt paid for my Bali trip and it wasn't cheap either! There wasn't much things to buy there but I managed to get a couple of clothes that wasn't cheap because it was from the normal brands. Bought a top from MNG, a romper from Bershka, two top from Billabong and a dress from this brand in Bali called Anywhere. Wanted to get a bag and sandals and more stuffs but figured out that all these clothes that I have got added up to almost $200 wtf I just realized.
Gonna be posting some photos for now and if I wanna blog more I shall continue on the next blog post!
it's night time right now! probably the only time that I will be blogging! so much thoughts running through my mind and so much things I feel like blogging about but I don't know where/how do I start, hmmmm..
Okay, so my holidays have been pretty okay so far and I don't know whether I should consider it as well spent though! Though I truly felt that the holidays can be better if the client can just let us off.. indeed tedious and a chore to travel all the way to meet them on a weekly basis. I mean, it is our holidays after all. Yes, we were supposed to do our work, but at the same time, give us a break damn it. I can't stop whining about this but FYP sucks so bad.
Spent loads of quality time with fatty during the holidays, as usual. Going to school, watching movies, going to GYM... my new found activity that I really enjoys it and I love going to the GYM! Started gyming in around second week of May I think. I have always wanted to visit the gym but didn't really have the courage to enter one especially the public gyms.. since they are always so packed!
I remember once when zee and I wanted to visit the public gym at Bedok. I was really motivated during that period (last year) and I work out at least thrice per week mainly running and doing home exercises! Home exercises are really great! they can make me sweat so much within 3 minutes or even lesser no joke. But I hate the fact that I still haven't gotten my yoga mat since I wanted to buy one donkey years ago since it is really painful to lie on the floor and working out on it! harmful for the back I guess and when I sweat on the floor, there will be a really disgusting sweat mark on the floor!
But yeah! I finally finished the gym with fatty about one month back and we went to the public gym at Pioneer! It wasn't too bad though the first one or two session I felt pretty awkward since the gym was pretty packed and I didn't know too much about working out in the gym and getting in the right form for the different workout. Thanks to fatty for patiently guiding me through though! So far we have had 5 gym sessions together!
Leg day x2
Back day x2
Arm day x1
Will usually work on the glutes and do cardio at the end of every session as well. Personally I find that I don't sweat that much when I gym! I usually sweat when I do squats though! And cardio, of course!
Leg day is the most enjoyable for me so far because I like to work on my legs! Back day is pretty alright though I almost died on our second back day together. The first one was pretty okay for me but the second one we had was tough. I guess it is probably because of the order/arrangement of the workout! The other day, (Last tuesday) we had our first arm day! it was easy for the start! arm day is quite interesting but boring at the same time! but I was aching so badly from our arm day for around 2-3 days! good ache though, hehe.
So for the past few weeks, I went to the gym with fatty for at least once per week but haven't gone to the gym yet this week and probably not too sure whether I will be going since fatty is away overseas. :(
I just came back from a Bali trip btw! It was a pretty short one I would say, but long enough for Bali, I guess. Didn't quite enjoy the trip very much though because I felt that the time was not well spent :( can't blame it because I went with Auntie Mary and Auntie Annie and they need their rest. Sometimes I feel that I shouldn't get pissed off too easily because I remember I was in quite a bad mood and only felt better on the last day of the trip. The first two days was terrible! I was feeling really down for the whole day after fatty sent me off for my trip because that morning on the 13th June was the last moment I saw him and I will only be seeing him again on the 26th of June odear. I'm not even halfway there.
The trip was booked really last min, like just one week before we flew. Was contemplating for very long whether I should go. I guess the fickle-minded me get affected easily so I went in the end though I regretted my choice not long later. You see, I am flying off on the 13th of June and will only be back on the 16th of June (night time), and fatty will be flying off on the 15th of June to Switz until the 26th of June. I felt that I could have spend 3 more long days with him if I didn't go. Such an OA, ikr.
Now that I'm back home I feel much better already and today was the first day that I spent at home since I was back only yesterday! it wasn't too bad because I had things to do. Since fatty is away in Switz, there is actually a 6 hours time zone difference so when it is 12midnight in Singapore, it is only 6pm in the evening there. I find this kind of annoying! It is like the day is over for me already and it is only evening for him?! And when it is 12midnight for him, it is already 6am at my side which means morning already! (insert angry face)
So I slept pretty late at around 5-6am SG timing last night hehe. It was his first official day of his trip and he is in Paris currently! And I woke up in the afternoon, I think I only had 6 hours of sleep now that I think of it. BUT WHY AM I NOT TIRED AT ALL, this doesn't feel like me!
Today, I feel so damn thankful and touched by things that my parents are willing to do for me. Personally, I feel that I have been such a troublesome daughter. Ever since I hit puberty / in upper primary, I started to grow pimples on the forehead of my face. I remember having really large and ugly pimples unlike majority of my peers with really nice skin. And when I hit lower secondary, pimples started growing on my cheeks instead. terrible terrible but I am so thankful that it is cleared now. And from around sec 2/sec 3, I started to have acne growing/forming on my arms/back. I felt terrible at that period of time. Everyone gets to wear nice sleeveless clothes and I only get to stick with my long sleeve. I know I can easily just wear sleeveless out, but my insecure self always make me feel so self conscious about my arms! Even up till now, there are quite a number of scars left on my arms. It is really not that bad, but can be seen. Honestly, I can't even remember when was the last time I wore sleeveless clothes out and just walk around really freely.
From what I remembered, my parents spent a lot of money since I hit puberty trying to get me to go to the doctor to cure it my acne problems. From visiting polyclinic, to visiting private doctors, to visiting the National Skin Care Centre, to visiting Chinese Doctor and oh, facial too.
From applying cream, apply lotion, controlling my diet, eating medicine, pills, eating chinese bitter medicine etc... My mum usually buys a lot of products for my skin (either face/arms) whenever she hear people say that they are good, and most of them are not cheap. When I was younger, I always hated it when she do that because I hate the trouble of having to use a proper cleanser, to apply things on my face, or even applying some masks for acne and I usually waste her effort and money by using the products for a few days and dumping it there. I feel bad but back then I was only in primary school/lower secondary. And for the consuming of medicine, I remember hearing the doctor says that there will be side effects for the medicine and consuming too much of it may cause liver failure because some are really strong. I remember having to pop pills every single day or even twice a day.. but really, I feel that none of them actually really works for me or maybe idk, I just didn't notice the difference.
There was once in sec 4 whereby I consumed this med for my arms that make me stink so bad. That period of time, I feel bad because people could get a taste of how smelly I was when they come near me. Even zee often complain that I was smelly. So the doctor fees added up to quite a big sum esp when I visited the Skin care centre quite often for about a year or so. I remember dad always driving me and mum there after school and mum will accompany me to wait for my turn to see the doctor and to take the medication and paying for it. Chinese doctor sessions was usually accompanied by my aunt every weekend and after a few months, I stopped going back because the chinese medicine was costly and it wasn't doing much help. Oh and the thing I hated most was going for facial. Luckily I only went twice and rejected going for it TOTALLY every time mum mentions it. Going for facial is torturous, imo. It was really painful especially when I have so much blackhead/acnes/huge pimples on my face, and the after effect will be me ending up looking really horrible because of my reddish face.
And today, we visited this aesthetic clinic. Wanted to make an appt for it since last year Sept but dragged till now. Finally! Went for consultation with the doctor.. waited for around 45 mins though. The doctor suggested Laser! oh it is for my arms and back btw. felt as if I wasted my parents money by trying to treat with it with so many methods but I could have done Laser earlier on! Went with mum and dad drove us there. I know I wanted to do it so badly after the doctor told us about it.. just imaging myself not having to wear long sleeve under the hot sun and being able to wear sleeveless just makes me really happy. However, it is not cheap at all. 4 treatments done in a month at the price of $1000, and 10 treatments done in around 4 months at the price of $2288 which doesn't include the heavy GST of 7%. I told mum that I don't mind paying it myself, but my dad is paying for it. I feel so touched, really. He told me that he doesn't mind paying for it as long as it can be cured. :(
I know my parents are not rich. Every cent they make is really not easy at all. My dad, he has to sit in the cab for so so many hours pay day. It is really an unhealthy job and he meets many different kinds of people every single day, and he usually comes home with many stories to tell! Suddenly remember the other time when Kan wants to interview my dad for her assignment and he started talking about his stories. :) As for mum, she works really hard and her money doesn't come easily as well. But what I feel touched about is their selfless love for my brother and I. My mum barely spend on clothes or even anything, but when she goes out with us, we will always have a nice meal together and sometimes she will buy things for us though she may not be the most generous mum out there. As for my dad, he is really a nice man. He doesn't spend money either and mainly only on buying us nice food and also on beer because he enjoys drinking, yet he only buy those really cheap beer. :/ I mean, with the amount of money for the laser, it could have been well spent somewhere on other things or even just saving it. But, I am thankful, really.
And I almost forgot when I told my parents I wanted to get my braces. My dad is always the really supporting one and brought me to the dental on one of his off day straight, and we decided on getting braces in less than a week and he was the one who brought me and accompanied me to the X-ray, my pre consultation, first consultation and some occasional consultation though he usually just complains to my dental about me hmm. And braces doesn't come in cheap as well, it is about $4000 or so. My dad was cracking a joke today and saying that when we moved back home (I wanted to renovate my room and already have a rough idea how I want my room to look), he says that my bed that I am getting is just getting lower and lower. From the bed itself with the frame, to without the frame, mattress etc because of all these money spent on me. I am really excited to move back home but it is gonna be really tedious and without the support of the rental, dad is going to have to work really hard and by then, I will be going to a university which means the big sum of school fees that we have to pay. Thankful for my aunt too because she have actually paid an amount for my braces as well. Every month, she will place $100 on my table for my monthly consultation fee. It is the little things my loved ones do that make me feel really touched. I know for sure that I am going to work extra hard (with a pea brain) and treat them really well in the future. I may not be able to give them much now but I definitely will in the future.
Don't even know how I just keep typing so much for the past one hour and drafted such a long post. I really find myself such a long winded person and I can just link from one thing to another and just go on and on and on HAHA. Haven't even finish mentioning about my Bali trip and I linked it to other things. My aunt paid for my Bali trip and it wasn't cheap either! There wasn't much things to buy there but I managed to get a couple of clothes that wasn't cheap because it was from the normal brands. Bought a top from MNG, a romper from Bershka, two top from Billabong and a dress from this brand in Bali called Anywhere. Wanted to get a bag and sandals and more stuffs but figured out that all these clothes that I have got added up to almost $200 wtf I just realized.
Gonna be posting some photos for now and if I wanna blog more I shall continue on the next blog post!
hi us upside down because I can't rotate the photos ugh!
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