Besties

As we go on, 

We remember, 

All the times we, 

Had together. 

As our lives change,

Come whatever,

We will still be,

Friends forever.

Suddenly feeling quite emotional after receiving Zee's long text in our group chat. It suddenly dawn on me that we are gonna be going on separate paths soon. Being in the same schools for 7 years and it is at this point that we will being on separate paths on our last stage of our education. 

Didn't expect that I will feel upset about this. But these girls are the sweetest and bestest friends that I will probably have in my entire life. Having different personalities doesn't stop us from being friends. The many things that we did together throughout these 7 years and counting of our friendships. Never thought that our friendships would have gone so far, so much more than what I thought from the day we know each other when we were 13.

Wow. 13 sounds so far now that we are 20. Well, actually I am the only one who have turned 20 while those two are still months away from turning 20. It is amazing how when we first know a person, we don't know how this person will actually influence and stay in our lives for so long. These two are definitely keepers for life. 

Well, we definitely have pretty funny first impressions of one another. How I thought Kan was nerdy and her first words to me on our first day of secondary one was actually "can lend me your pen? My pen spoil" I turned and thought that she was some really blur girl and her pen that 'spoil' was actually a free pen that the school gave us. How funny. Never did I expect this girl to be one of the sweetest and bestest friend! For being there for me when I broke down, for talking so much crap with me on Whatsapp, for spamming the capture button when we selfie. Well, in school, she was also someone I look up to and copy her work lolol because I trust her answers. And also, someone who always pms and black face in secondary school. Sigh, those were the times. At one point, I even remember saving her contact name as Shalyn mummy. So gay but that's how motherly and caring she is, to me.

As for Zee, my first impression of her was that she look really fierce. In fact, we didn't even talk in secondary 1 and 2? We only got closer during Secondary 3 and it was probably the best times when we sat beside each other during Secondary 3 and Secondary 4. Her weirdness make me laugh every single time. How we will always take bus together after school, and eating loads of MSG and cheese fries, bubble tea. How we will always have endless things to talk about. Someone so identical to me and we can almost read each other's minds all of the time. My shopping buddy. It was amazing how someone got such an identical taste as me. Oh, and the epic moment was how she thought I was the ugliest girl during secondary one. Not forgetting our F&N classes which were the main factors why we became close. All the cooking and theory that we studied together.

Thanks for showing me what is true friendship. To more years ahead, my dearest besties. 

Thoughts

Somehow it bothers me sometimes when I feel that I am being look down at. Not just me, but the whole poly cohort in general. Why do people in JC always think that they are smarter? Not all of them but perhaps a lot of them feel so. But that's certainly not true. It is the choices we make, the route we chose to go. In this case, poly. 

Poly is a great journey, 3 years of life skills being thrown at us and I am sure I learnt a lot of skills that I won't be able to picked up in JC. I learnt confidence. Given the chance to practice my presentation and communication skills, I am a much more confident speaker now as compared to when I was in year 1, still new and fresh. I still dread every single presentation even up till now, not the best speaker too, but I understand myself better now.

You see, most of us in poly can actually go to a JC too. It may not be the best JC but hey, a lot of friends around me actually did better than the friends of mine who went to JC. So we are all equal. Yes, it is true that the poly graduate have lower chance to enter lower U. Lol definitely not because we are dumber okay. It is because we are in Singapore. 90% of the JC cohort makes up the 100% of the population in local U. Only 10% for the poly cohort. It is not as if we get to chose, or am given a choice. We have to squeeze and compete with thousands of students from the 5 polytechnics. It is definitely not as slack and easy as what people think unless you have already experienced it. Poly being more slack is not true at all. It is just that we are more flexible and given time to take exams and do our assignments. Oh we have Final year projects as well and of course, Internship. Yes, I can vouch and say that the skills we learnt are actually more applicable in the working world? 

So what if most of us poly graduate end up in SIM? At least we still get a place somewhere right. No place in local U? Well, let it be then? What can we do to change the fact that only 10% of us can get in local U anw. The fact is, the government feel that us, as diploma students, we are eligible to work already rather than study. Though majority of us still want to get a degree because certification is important in SG.

So, ya. 

A brand new year, once again

Woohoo,
Hello blogger.
Blogging this post on the 7th of February while I have some time right now.
It's my birthday, my 20th birthday to be exact.
Ahh, so it is true when people say that as you grow older, birthday doesn't seems that important anymore. Don't really feel the hype like "yay, it is my birthday" unlike the past years. When I was younger, these 24 hours feels really special like it is all mine. I remember I would be counting down minutes and seconds on how long more my birthday will be ending. But now, it just feels normal. Quite sad ah!

Even though it is already the 7th February 2015, woah, another year 2014 flew by!!
Always wanted to do a summary post of the entire year but it will take me crazy long la!
But anw, shall blog a little about my 2014 since I'm free now. It's good to look back and see what I have done. ahh, I realized I don't really set goals for myself heh, more like I am the type that just do whatever I want to and feel like.

January
I remember my first moment of 1st of January was spent with fatty! We went to the Marina area to watch the fireworks and got a spot that was not bad! Though the crowd was crazy. HAHAHAH and me being me, I was taking photos of the firework and asked fatty to help me video the firework. Afterwards he scolded me and until now he still say me lor. HAHAH like watch firework and he ended up helping me video my firework and watching through my small screen HAHAH.

Can't remember whether I actually posted this set of photos before but here are some snippets of our day!

 Oh gosh, I got lazy. Shall update again next time!!!

Post Christmas

The season of giving, the season of spending time with your love ones. 

I haven't been spending Christmas in Singapore for a couple of years already from what I have remembered. This year sure feels special since I spent my Christmas in Singapore.

My family isn't the type that celebrate Christmas nor do we exchange presents. I only remember doing that when my brother and I were younger and the adults would give us present and we would each buy a present to exchange with our cousins. 

This year, I had a joyful Christmas! A little different definitely, because I spent this day with ken and his friends and I had fun! It was nice that he reunited with his close friends from secondary school while I hang out with them and made new friends. Had a nice dinner at Seoul Garden that was a tad too expensive. Dinner cost $38/pax and it wasn't worth the price. After that, the night activity was bowling. There were 14 of us including me and Ken so it was a big group. Played 3 games which was fun! 

The night ended with Ken taking the train with me for a few stations and we exchanged our present as well. Didn't feel that my gift were very great this time round ugh was quite unhappy with my present actually. The initial present that was more ideal didn't arrive in time because I ordered only about 2 days before and so, back up plan was to get a shirt and bag from a local male store. Received a Nike sportswear from him yay and in my favorite color... And matcha latte too damn funny. Was guessing that he got me a bag/shoes so when I open it it was quite an unexpected gift. As we were skyping while opening the gifts, I was laughing hard when I saw the matcha latte. My boyfriend is too cute. 

Oh and he lied about not forgetting to make me a hard as well and hid it really well at the bottom of all the gifts. Really touched by the effort that you put in. Well, our present exchange was a little last min though because we only decided to exchange and finalize the budget of $70 2 days before Christmas. 

And omg I am so excited. After a whooping 8 fricking months, it is jay chou's concert tomorrow omg 8 months leh. Such a long time that my tickets already turned yellow. 

So cute. Alright, update again soon. Oh and I removed my braces already last Friday. So happy with the results. 

Holy shiat I can finally blog on mobile

It doesn't feel that long but wtf I haven't updated for so long. And now that my holidays are ending in.a week and then it is the last sem in poly already!! This holiday was pretty well spent.. And *drum rolls* I got my iPad using my pay from work! And rebonded my hair just 3/4 days ago. Feeling terrible in my hair because it is so straight! Oh and so suay ah, I had to change my ezlink card because it was faulty. Less than a month after changing it, I lost the card fml. To be exact, it was fatty who lost it when he kept my card for me! Oh and I bought a pair of superga with my pay too. I love it so much!!! 

It is white!! Ikr, it pretty much look like a pair of school shoes but I have always wanted a get a pair of white shoes for the longest time already!! 

Fatty and I got matching bangle that isn't that cheap after all. 

Cost us almost 40 bucks each. Feel slightly deceive but well, hopefully it won't spoil so easily.

 

Oh and more photos... 

The day we had dinner at 85. Yums I love 85 bcm.

- scrolling for more photos on my iPad and le xiao qiang appeared -

When we were working for Passioncard event. Tee that we bought for work. Cheap cheap from denizen. 

And when we were working data entry. Our almost last day of work I think!

My yum yum hot chocs. Feel so cheated when I found them selling it at such a low price at value$

Random supper aunt bought from deli.

Mum prepared this for dinner a few weeks back!! 

After I got my haircut a few weeks back. Finally I have fringe again after a year.

So this is before I use the hair curler.

And after.. Seeing the difference so I went for rebonding again. 

Qt mahraape

<3 

Liangteh I love! 

Rebond monster - by fatty 

Happy Birthday, Mummy.

don't feel good today. :(
feeling like I didn't put in enough effort to help mum celebrate her birthday.
ugh, some more birthdays are one in a year. :(((((
and same for last year too. I didn't even spend an hour of her birthday w her last year..

Even though I spent more time w her this year as compared to last year.. but still, I feel bad.
Mum turns 49 today, and it will be her last year before she turns 50.
It is kind of sad that she is still unable to enjoy her life despite working really hard for the past 48 years. 48 years does sound a bit exaggerating, but as a teen, she had to work half the day and study during the other half of the day. Do the housework, cook, bring the younger siblings in the family for checkups and injections. It definitely doesn't sound easy for a person born in the Y generation like myself. I guess I will never get to experience that and I will never know how it feels like..

My initial plan was to bring mum out today for lunch and to do some walking and shopping. Before I decided on a present to buy, I had many ideas like buying her a new bag, new clothes, new wallet, some higher end facial products, new necklace, new phone, new ipad.. and the list goes on. I guess it isn't tough selecting a present to buy for someone thrifty like my mum since she rarely shop. I decided to op for a new wallet in the end because I know that her wallet is getting old (just like my dad's), and also getting her new gadgets will be a bit too expensive.

One thing I don't really like about myself is that I always buy things (birthday presents) really last min and I will never learn my lesson. I still feel that it isn't a bad thing, but it is really contradicting especially when I am such a fussy gift giver (Such term exist??) and I only choose to buy things that the other party needs/will use. I rarely take risks because I like the feeling of receiving something I like and I'm pretty sure everybody do! I tend to expose myself often by asking the particular person for their opinion before I decide on something for their birthday. ikr, just like fatty's birthday even though I chose the gift myself. Nowadays, I tend to be Ms Mysterious and just buy something and hide it. And most of the time, I tend to regret my choice after I buy something. call me Ms Can't-make-up-her-mind.

If the item is cheap, well, I guess that's okay. For my aunt's birthday, it took me quite some time before deciding on getting her a Coach pouch! I was quite pleased with what I got, but at the same time, it wasn't the best because I know that what I got her was a little too small.

For mummy's birthday, I bought her a wallet from Agnes B. No idea why I start buying branded stuffs for birthday gifts this year (not all of the birthdays of course). I knew it wasn't the kind of wallet that she likes. It is fat (she likes the flat kind where she can just chuck it into her jeans). And nope, I didn't buy black. Bought a nice blue color even though she always buy dark colored stuffs. Felt as if I was making a bet by purchasing something completely opposite of the details she fancy.. for her birthday some more. It cost almost $200 and she scolded me because it was expensive and it isn't the type of thing she will use. I know she meant well but guess it wasn't a bad attempt. though I felt that I could have spend the money on something she likes better or simply give her that amount. hmm.

My initial plan to go out w her failed as well. I went back home early though while the rest stayed back to do PM. Reached home and she called me and ask me where am I. She wanted to ask me to meet her at Bedok for lunch but told me it's okay after she found out that I was home even though I insisted I can find her. She came home w Gongcha (I asked her to buy for me hehe) and bread. And she had bread for lunch, I was like "What?"

We chatted a lot the whole afternoon. This was quite a rare moment because I rarely spend a lot of time at home nowadays especially like the entire afternoon. So mum is always alone at home until evening when everyone comes home. Supposed to go out for dinner in the evening but my bro didn't reply both our text when we asked him what time he will be home. I'm pretty soft-hearted so I don't know how someone like my bro can just ignore my mum text la wtf. But wasn't angry at him because he is always like that. Nope, no exception even on this special's day. He came home in the late evening, as expected. When dad ask him whether he wants to go out for dinner, he said that he was tired. Pretty understandable but is my mum's bday... and so, we had casual dinner at home and just eat anything.

Feel even worst that mum didn't had anything special for her birthday. No cake as well because mum ask us not to buy.. what. Worst still, my bro didn't even wish my mum. sigh.

Nonetheless, I'm super glad that fatty asked me to go home early today after school even though I suggested that I should stay back till later but yay, it was a good choice. thank you my love and thanks for accompanying me to buy mum's present on the day we were so tired. I can never say enough thank you to you for being the sweetest. Well, always waiting for me patiently outside the toilet and asking me to take my time when I have my urgent need to pooooop and I usually take quite a long time!

On Tuesday, I was being such a burden. Went toilet once when we were at IMM after walking around awhile after dinner. Didn't complete my toilet task and I knew I will have to go again. Tummy chose a bad timing because we took the train back to Joo Koon and we had to drop off again at Boon Lay for me to visit the toilet. I felt so bad because it was alr 7-8 plus and that's pretty late since we were supposed to go home for dinner. Thankful.

Yesterday was pretty scary man! Stayed in school till late to do work and it is actually the 7th month now. No choice because we have quite a lot to do for PM. Next week CSB and Mcomm FOL. And the following week is fyp deadline wow. When we were going home at 10 plus, we took the lift as usual. We were at the fourth floor so we were supposed to take to the second floor and then walk. The lift door open a small gap at the second floor and couldn't open!! Fatty tried to pull open the door but failed. So he closed it instead and try to go back to the fourth floor. I was panicky and scared! Wouldn't want to be stuck in the lift for hours plus it was late and I was afraid that if we ring the lift bell, no one will attend to us. Heart was pounding but luckily, the door opened and we were back at the fourth floor, thank goodness. I remember telling fatty that I was scared and he gave me a hug. It was really a sweet gesture that calm me down and I love how safe I feel when I'm with him and how he turns everything from positive to negative. He will always be there to help and make me feel better and I'm so thankful. I wonder when you will be able to read this but well, when you do, I hope it puts a smile on your face whether you are happy, angry, sad, grumpy, sian or wanna bash someone up! xoxo. <3

Oops went a little far from my initial post but was chatting with my mum and I am really thankful for the parents that I have. They say you can't choose/change your parents and I have the best that anyone will ask for. Every little gesture my parents do for me never fail to touch my heart, even though I no longer express my feelings that much. (I find it a little mushy as I grow older) Nonetheless, they will always have a place in my heart and I will never forget everything that they have done for me. :)

I will repay you someday. Meanwhile, loads of love.